OK Im back and I have to say God is truly testing me. I know that for a fact that I'm not going to get prego this month one because I can feel my period come in second I didnt ovulate this month at all and David and I had sex for the frist time in almost 3 months. Due to a HUGE disagreement. Lord, I feel so lied to and forgotten about. Because I asked months ago if it was in your will for me to have more kids, ( After all you can make and do the impossiable possiable) then send me a strong word and sign from you but if it's not in your will them remove the deisre from me. Knowing you and beliving in your word, I trusted you when your word says that all we have to do is have faith as a Mustard seed and we can move a mountain. My mountain was this strong desire of wanting Twin girls, A baby... But in a few short weeks if not days you sent a woman telling me everything I wanted and needed to hear from you. She said Sep and here it is at the end of the month and Father no Baby in my belly no sign of prego. 14 days from Sep been over. I thought this was the month. Its so sad and hard for me to be happy with two other woman who have been on this same Mountain with me and yet it seem there faith has moved theres and one twice as mouch. Both woman where blessed with baby. one with Twins. My heart is Sad Lord and I know you know that but I wanted to write and tell you thanks for the sign of faith from my Son, Mrs. Heights granddaughter. YOu knew the news I was going to be faced with today and was ready... I love you and trust you and my faith in my Twin Girls Madiason and Morgan is still alive and IM so ready to move this Mountain. Im next in line for my Mirecials. Im ready. It's my turn. Lord in this season of giving twin Lifes please dont do it with out me. I want to get in on this blessing. I speak the Kobold glorly love Blood on my Madison and Morgan. Thank you.
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