So, David and I talked shortly about having a baby and we came to agree to disagree. I told him that it was a deal breaker and he told me that we don't need to have a baby if I don't pick up after my self. My thought to that is that I had given up so much. He and my x- friend Christy ruined my wedding, the wedding I moved back two times for his daughter who didn't even bother to show up, and then Daivd let Cristy touch his butt and then the both of them lied about it, I never have gottem a honey moon, no dates ect and now he wants me to give up having a baby. NOPE sorry thats a deal breaker for me and I told him that we need to do something. I think it will be best for us to end this marriage because there is not use to hold each other back from living and moving on with our life. I want a family he does not. I also told him that if God's promise is not fullfillled by this Sep then am going to be talking to the doctors about other ways to have a baby and I have a friend who is willing to go half in with me, in other words donate his swimmers.
He really wants kids without the drama of a wife as he says. So I think we can help each other it's sad that I wont be having a baby with my husband well at that point he wont be my husband but it's sad we have to end this marriage on and around kids but I think it's worth it. I truly desire a baby and am not giving that up alone with every other thing I have asked David for that has been put on the back burner. Iam tired of been told no not yet, wait, hold on in other words put on the back burner like am just a girl friend.
Well, am not really that sad because wether it be with David or with someone else God did make a promise and He does know the desires of my heart and he still a man of his word so am still in good faith with out my husbands support. and that os ok with me it is what it is. Madison and Morgan am not sure who your dad is going to be but just know that I love you and Jesus loves you thats all that matters.
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