well I'am still not prego at all in fact am on my period right now. although am grateful for been on my period I still so desire to have twins. I prayed about a month ago that if having another baby is not in God's will for my life, that he would please take the very thought of having a baby away from me. He control our thoughts and he can take away my very way of thinking about babies away and that's what I asked him to do if it's not in his will for me to have more kids. I then asked Jesus, please if it is your will then let me know, I don't want it to be a thought, I don't want to think Jesus said this or that. Jesus I need something real from you saying it's ok to have another baby. I don't know how to lay a fleece but I need something solid and do you know what happened 3 days later on Sunday. I was working in the office after Church trying to get all the youth things ready for Convention and I had a question so I went to asked Sis.Lunkin. Well I forgot to tell you she had brought a guest who in fact was not into or should I say is not into Organized Churches meaning she don't go to a building to worship. (I think) anyways she came with SIs' Lunkin - Sis.Lunkin was not expecting her to come in fact she had asked her before and she always said no, anyways she came and she was there at our Church. I need to point out that I have NEVER seen or meet this lady before. Anyways I came out the office to asked Sis.Lunkin something and the two of them where in the back waiting for Bro.Lunkin to get out of Choir reshusal and they just sat talking. Well I walked up asked Sis.Lunkin what I was going to but for some reason I stood there for a min. Then Sis.Lunkin looked at (M) I forget her name. Anyways and she says she has a testimony, she was talking about me. And at that point we all just talk. I asked if she enjoyed church she said yes and we talked aittle more abut church and then for some reason I was still stuck there. I was in the middle of doing something in the office but yet I stood there as if no where to go. Anyways, Sis. Lunkin reached for my hand and asked ( M) to do the same. So she did. Now one thing you have to know about me if I don't allow just anyone to touch me more so to pray for me. I have been told I have been like this my whole life. So when Sis.Lunkin then told M to pray for me I normally would of said o that's ok and made myself leave. But when M reached for my hand and I felt her touch it was something about that touch. It was life I felt it before and it felt safe. I remembered going to visit my Aunty and Uncle Curtis house in Austin and every time I went there or to my Aunt Deloris house and went to sleep I felt so safe and whole there. I always have trouble sleeping but I have never had sleepless night at there house even in my own home I sometime have trouble sleeping but never at their house but anyways that safe feeling if what I felt when M touched my hand. Anyways M right off started praying and she said things that was right on point. She said God was going to handle the people who touched me when I was a child that it's ok( she had no idea I was molested as a Child), she said that I need to make some changes prosay about my Job. ( she had no idea Iam talking a very important test this summer that has to do with my job, She had no idea am planning and desiring to go back to school to be a teacher, she had no idea I have been praying if this is the Job area where God wants me and it is and it was good to hear, God just wants me to go for promoting my Job.) She prayed over alot of things that I have been praying to God for and guess what she said in Sep somethings was going to happen and asked if I was done having a baby and when I said no is when she said she sees that and she prayed over my womb and then she said things is going to happen in Sep. So now in Faith am praying and faithing in God for Twin girls. Morgan Brooklyn Faith and Madison Emmalyn Grace So I will see you in Sep to let you know if she was speaking form God or not or if this is real. I'm believing it is real because she could not know any of those things about me but from God. So see you soon and all am going to say is Try God, he is the real deal and if no baby am going to say I know God is real still but maybe it was just a word from God not a promise. Either way both is a gift. To hear a word from him is even greater than a promise because his word is a promise so from his word you get both and I guess from his promise is his word so again either way, he is the real deal. I'll update you in Sep. Bye see you soon, Morgan Brooklyn Faith and Madison Emmalyn Grace O by the way he never promised 2 babies just a baby am just having faith that it would be two. Let's see how far faith can take me. FAITH here I come and leaning on you.I just can't wait to meet Madison and Morgan. I said Iam going to wait until Sep but I change my mind I think I am going to blog daily about my mood and feelings cause I know it's going to be a up and down mood and also I think I will blog for the first year of theirr life. So join in on my faith walk I pray that God's name be known through my journey and may it help you in your life. God says in his word( the Bible) that we have not cause we ask not, I have asked and now am faithing as I call it.
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