My dream

So Emma Grace I was thinking if I had it my way and I was married to some one younger I would have you and 2 other girls. And name yall :      
                                                                            Emma Grace
                                                                            Brooklyn Hope
                                                                           Claire Faith
and then when y'all turn 2 I would birth y'all a brother and I would name him John David I think am not sure i have to think about that but having 3 babies at once would only be a test from God for my patients cause I don't think you can have triplets without meds so that would never happen, it's just a dream of mine. WOW I wish I could live this dream I love been a mom and I know that id enjoy been yalls mommy as well but that's not the life I choose back in heaven so I guess I have to live out this in my dream and I hope to meet you there every night and I love you. I'm not sure if this is crazy that am writing to my dream daughter but it helps, cause I asked God to take the desire away cause the pain is to great to desire you so much and not be blessed with you and your sisters. god has his own plans for my life and nothing is better than his plan I just don't get this faith thing at all I pray that God teach me faith, hope and grace more so out of the 3 love. How to love my life just the way it is, have faith that God will bless it, have hope that am in his will and ask him to have grace over it all my mind dreams and desires.